After my remarks about the need of intercessory prayer and my five urgent needs, many of you began praying for me and this ministry. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! God is answering prayers each day and is blessing me. Your prayers are effective. But even though I have seen God answer my prayers, I sometimes find myself during the day unsettled, as if something was “eating” at me on the inside. It’s a fight — a struggle — that I can’t really explain. God is blessing me and taking care of my immediate needs, yet I have this sensation that trouble is waiting for me right around the corner… and then what will I do?
The conflict I am having is precisely because of my determination to be dependent upon God for everything. Because I am wired and conditioned to be “in control”, the idea of relinquishing daily the steering wheel and gas pedal to God is not a natural thing or easy thing to do — at least not for me yet. Depending upon Him is a frank acknowledgement that I am in over my head and I have no hope unless He grabs my hand. Yet it appears that this is where God wants me. It’s called, “Walking with Jesus”. It requires for me to be led like a child.
I believe that God has ordained Dean Barley, my friend Carson, the staff at our camp and my own church to attempt to do things that are so incredible and large that our attempts are bound to fail… unless God’s hand is upon us!
When God told Noah build the first boat — an ark of incredible proportions! — the world would have called it sheer lunacy! But Noah built that Ark.
When God’s hand was upon Moses, he trusted God to provide food, water, and provisions for over 2,000,000 Hebrews for FORTY YEARS in the desert! The world would have called this mass suicide! But they lived and conquered Canaan.
When God called Jonah to preach to Nineveh — city known to revel in blood and hostility — and pray that they would repent — the world would have seen the attempt as absurd! But the city repented and was saved — all of them.
When God commanded Gideon to reduce his army from 30,000 to 300 and then go and defeat an army of 185,000 — the world would say it was insanity! But he won the battle and destroyed Sennacherib’s entire army.
When Jesus Himself told Peter to leave the boat and walk on water — the world would say that this was nothing less than attempting to deny the laws of physics! But he did walk on water.
So when God tells Dean to trust Him to satisfy solve the finance needs, the insurance claims from the fire, world-wide camper enrollment, recruiting the right staff, and our capital drive, the world says its “wacko” — but perhaps I am not attempting the incredible and “wacko” enough! But God is going to deliver me.
To God be the glory for the great things He has done, the great things He is doing and the great things He is going to do this week.