Search my heart Lord



Wednesday, November 8, 2017


Dear Friends:

“Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”

What a perfect prayer for the man or woman that’s serious about God!  David wrote this Psalm and surely meant what he said.  He did not trust in his own thoughts, habits or self-evaluation. He wanted for God to have His way in his life.

What is in my heart? That is to say, “What is the true and underlying purposes for the things I do and say?”  I can agree with David here:  God, please search my heart and make it right!  Give me the opportunity to choose the right thing and see if it make the right choice! Then look at what it is in my life that makes me anxious.  Is it not that I am anxious that I might be found to hindering the gospel of your son and being a drag on the progress of your Kingdom?  

I understand what David meant when he sincerely asked God to “check me out—-am I doing anything that is offensive or contrary to what a man seeking everlasting life should be committing.”   There’s more than one reason that David prayed this prayer and that I pray the same thing.

For one thing, I truly want to make Him happy with me! I want to live and shine like I was His “favorite”!   But the other reason is that I want to be 100% sure that I am where I ought to be in my work, relationships and decisions!  If I can be sure of this, my prayers are far more powerful because I am praying with great confidence and belief. I am, in fact, praying in “His name” and have acquired the mind of Christ when I pray like this.  That means there is nothing and no one in relationship to me that causes me to stumble, nor am I causing another to stumble because of my behavior.

But do I truly want to be placed under His microscope and evaluated and tested?  Absolutely!…. and for the same reasons listed above. The ultimate reality is God! Why on earth would I want to put off hearing God’s opinion of my life thus far!  Better to know where I come up short right now and focus on it now than to wait to when I have created damage by not begging for God to “search me” while there is still daylight!

Imagine a community of believers that prayed like this, or a government full of men and women that held this to be true!  Yes Lord, search the hearts of all those that apply to work at our camp next summer; and show them  their real hearts; test them and know their anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in them, and lead them in the way everlasting.”  A camp comprised of such dedicated young men and women would reverberate around the world.  Pray that it happens here in 2018.



dean  barley,

Dean Barley


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